Who will cry ....

My second blogged poem ...... bouquets and brickbats welcome :) ....

Who will cry when I die?
Oh, I wish some do cry ...
But is it not intriguing why ...
Should I want to die just to see someone cry?

Who will miss my words, both jolly and wane
who will remember the stupid jokes and the silly fights;
who will drive down the old memories lane
while silently staring at the twinkling twilights.

Who will sulk when I go?
Oh, I wish some one loves me so ....
But I wonder if I would really go,
If of such love I came to know....

Who will look at my empty chair
and wish the clock could be turned back;
who will hold a steaming cup of coffee on a cold winter morning
and wish I was there to share the moment.

Who will cry when I die?
Oh, I wish some do cry ...
But, who will keep the company of my ebbing sigh,
Silent dry eyes are a dreadful goodbye .........

On what should be the happiest day of my life.......

It should be the happiest day of my life as yet ....... but there is this weird feeling of emptyness ...... as if I did not win the silver.... I lost the gold...............

Today for me (though not officially) MBA entrance exam season 2008-09 comes to an end ......... been a long journey.......

I really do not know where to start recounting my tale .... from the first time I heard about the IIMs in 1st year of Engineering? ..... The first time I decided that I wanted to do an MBA (3rd year of Engineering) ?....... when I joined TIME for CAT 2008 (September 2007) ? ....... when I really started studying for CAT 2008 (Dec 2007) ? ..... I really do not know .....

But it has been a long and ardous journey uptill now, that is for sure .......

And what do I have to show for it ??

CAT 2007 - 71.11 percentile overall including a zero (yep.... you got it right..... zero) in Quant

A season full of MOCK CATS..... 20 AIMCATS from TIME ..... at least 20 dead take home CATs
with percentiles varying from 82 to 98.9 ....... but no consistency whatever .....

Finally something worthwhile ..... here is my perfomance uptill now in chronological order

Have decided to join IIM Calcutta .... (it was a no brainer really....) .... the only real competition was XLRI -BM .... but they have waitlisted me, have'nt they ?

Still emptyness ....... not happiness ..... I wonder why?

Maybe because after 1.5 years of hard work and juggling work, life, CAT studies and a very demanding set of parents and girl-friend; my mom had this to say after the result came out "You should have studied harder..... maybe you would have got IIM Ahmedabad...."

So life goes on ..... in pursuit of the pursuit .........